Holidayz are bad!

My holidays began 5days ago and i hate them. Yes, what i typed just now is what i mean.When evryone around me is busy i am idle and i dont know what to do. Watching tv seems boring and singing or practising music isn't sufficient to fill the time gap. Reading books is also not filling up the vaccum. May be because i have no friends i feel holidays boring but i can't help it. This is because people whom  considered my friends showed their true colours just before exams and i can never bear the idea of them being my friends.

Well, my mom feels i should help her in the household work which i am least interested in. My sister wants me to do her homework (silly! i crossed the age of homework long back )Relatives think i should take rest but the fact is the thought of rest makes me restless....

I always had this problem every holidays but this time the feeling of loneliness and emptiness has become as deep as it could get may be because i got used to hostel environment.

If i have a chance to say something that would be "NO MORE HOLIDAYS PLEASE......"

my last exam

I woke up with a start when the alarm was buzzing only to notice it was 4 in the morning.I got up and said to myself... "today is your last exam anu! you'll go home after that!" that was 16th of august 2011. I had my biochem practical , an exam i was longing for.

I had my class notes and m dear txtbook in front of me but still i couldnt read properly , as anyone does even i was excited about the fact that i was going home that day. I took a deep breath and then started revising thinking that the last exam of 1st year should be the best one. finally, i completed about 70% of my syllabus and went to the mess for breakfast. Raj was there. she asked me a few questions and v probed through our practical manual for marking important stuff to be revised before exam. I ate and had a cup of tea and rushed back to room to get ready for exam.

I went an hour before the exam along with mamatha and sat outside the lab reading. Soon, our batch people arrived and for a moment we actually forgot we had an exam .Again, i resumed back to books.

Soon, our professor, arrived to give instructions and asked us not to be tensed and asked us not to be in a hurry while doing experiments.

After that our exam finally started. The moment my no. was called and i saw the spotters i was overjoyed since i at least knew something about them. Later, when the buzzer stopped and i finished my spotters , it was time to pick an answer book to know my place. when i went there with my hands trembling, my professor tried to comfort me saying i have a lot of time to do my practical and i need to walk not run :) .

Luckily i got an unknown sample which turned out to be fructose.I was boiling something and though i didn't overheat, the contents spurted out and had to get a new paper. I was to estimate urinary creatinine in a sample which i could do properly. Then, the external examiner came with case sheets... Again, i was happy as i got a case of hemolytic jaundice which i could answer perfectly and my examiner said good. I was also happy as my favourite professor took viva for practical and though i didn't answer the last question she asked i could manage answering other questions.

The actual stress came when my grand viva started. I was the 15th in my batch. My friends who had it before me scared me saying they weren't able to answer properly. I got scared. But i decided to give my best. I could answer well to one external examiner though i landed up making one blunder.To the other examiner i could answer but only after thinking for a while.Altogether it was good as i promised to myself.